Wednesday 8 July 2009

Sweet Sweet Miss Surrender.
Summers Here.

so it's 11:32 and I'm sat in my living room bare footed in the dark. Last time i updated my blog i wasn't sure what i was doing this year after my mess up with the B.A this year.

I'm not in a better mental place than then. I have updated my CV today and i must say, that after my step dad went through it with me it read's really nicely.
I applied to American Apparel today too!
I can't keep my mind off the fact that my chances of getting a job there is about a billion in one.
but it would be so rad to be given a chance to learn stuff at such a rad place.

I've also had news that I'm going to be moving back to Essex soon too!
That buzzed me out! i cannot wait to move back to my real home with my friends and family all around me.

The only thing i was worried about was if me and Sophia will still be able to work, but i can honestly say that i think it will work so well if she is indeed driving and working in the city too.
I really love that we both put a lot of energy into things. so it feels good to know that we can still progress a lot.

It's also 10 days until Burn So Bright's second show. A local festival called "Pearfest." We're going to play on the mainstage so I hear which is awesome!
I really can't wait to get on stage and give it my all.
I just really hope that the crowd will dig our sound and will move too.
we have just finished writning a new song called "if these walls could talk" and it's easily our best song to-date, which we will be recording in September. It tackles the feelings i felt when I found out Aimee cheated on me all the time ago, I never got to vent my anger and took her straight back. I felt like such a fucking prick for doing it too.
LOVE.HONOUR.BUTNEVEROBEY.

Then we're hoping to book a hell of alot more shows after that until the rest of the year. so fingers crossed on that front

I'm also really excited about a possible project I'm doing with Dave.
That's going to be REALLY promising. Keep your eyes peeled for that in the coming months.
NAMDOOGSLEEF

I love holly ringsell so so much.

I'm so excited about Confide's re-release! it's going to be so much better than the first shout the truth, and thats saying something.

anyway, my necks stiff and I need to get ebaying tomorrow.
I'm saving up for a pedal board and a Dimarzio Clip strap.
and a first act guitar too!


Listen to;
Sing it loud - MPLS.



Neil



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Monday 29 June 2009

I'M SCARED TO POST ON HERE.
BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHATS GOING
TO HAPPEN RITE NOW.

I'M KEEPING FAITH.
KEEP THE WIND IN YOUR SAILS
KEEP THE WIND IN YOUR SAILS
KEEP THE WIND IN YOUR FUCKING SAILS.

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Tuesday 23 June 2009

You won't be able to read this; but i'm happy on the inside.

..And when they say, I'm a terrible kite, I'll fly through their window and change everything.



I have this amazing feeling of wellbeing tonight. I was starting feel like putting my faith into one thing was starting to be a bad idea but this was very very productive day, It seems that everything has made itself clear in one night that something could work out very well for me indeed. thats all i have ever wanted. for one project, or thing i work on/in to be really good.

I hope and pray that burn so bright do take off, because i really think we could get somewhere if we have the chance.


Sophia's coming over tomorrow and i cannot wait to spend time with her again !
after properly spending time with her friends i realized they're all pretty rad people.
so it'll be nice to see if they think the same as me.

I have also learnt to use guitar pro too which is peng as i can now write my own guitar parts and send them finally :|

The world certainly seems like a nice place to be in for me rite now.

until next time.

Neil

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Tuesday 16 June 2009

How neat!

I hooked up my blackberry to post blogs straight onto here! Shit me I feel cool. I should probably considder sleeping or something. I should probably get some tattoos done soon too. Laters.
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device

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Sunday 14 June 2009

I've got my life in a suitcase, always ready to run, run run.

How true that sentiment is.
In the past, I have always been worried about things getting too serious.
It's probably why I've always been the way I have with everything in my past.
but currently, After the weekend Ive had?
I'm finally starting to think that this is the lifestyle I wouldn't mind settling down into.

However, I'm tired of playing cat and mouse with a certain person and from now on will refuse to even try with you.

You're a waste of space and time.

Sophia's Pool and Summerhouse are the best things ever.
:)

Neil

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Thursday 11 June 2009

Spread The Messege.

Woop Di Doo!
Neiloh made another blog!


So it's ten to one, & I'm sat on my bed listening to the king blues. There's something about them I've really warmed too latley, They're music is actually rad.
so I was thinking I should make a new blog, considering I've been thinking a lot about the future latley and what i want to do with my life.

I really cannot wait to record, We've been writing for this E.P for nearly 3 months now,
I have a feeling it's going to be fucking cool. Hope to god that people dig it.
Lyrically, The E.P tackles loads of issues in a very subtle way, yet the meaning is still there.
Lately, My lyrics have been a lot darker; writing about the observations I make in and among my friend groups.
One in particular, plays on the Rold Dhal book; James and the Giant Peach; The feeling of being stuck with someone so sweet, yet wanting to leave and get out.

As the chant rings out "We're Spreading the Message" in 'Flame On' It leaves me thinking if i should even bother using positive and Pro-Peace themes in my lyrics. I have thought about this latley, I feel like when someone listens to our band, I want them to be uplifted by it, We're working with Frankie Torpey again, Which is who we worked with for our first two recordings, We all mutually decided to not go to outhouse yet as they charge a stupid amount for us at the moment and we feel that Frankie captured our sound really well the first time around; They were just demo's too. so I'm really excited to hear his mastered quality.
I'm too excited to for you to hear it.


I've been thinking a lot about my friends too. I have been truly best with my friend's.
& I do realize that, but theres something about Matt McCabe smoking and doing drugs that make me wonder how he got into that mess.
Just hope that he uses his head and gets out of that shit.
It's all ok to joke about being a mess. but deep down the kid is a lot better then that.
I understand that people change, and things happen to people as they grow up, but that shouldn't mean they lose the proper logic they once had.
I also went to the pub on Saturday, and saw an old friend of mine, who completely blanked me.
I don't understand how not seeing someone after so long will bring out an animosity inside someone.

Logic wise, I think I'm in the best place now, than I ever have been, My head feels clear and my heart feels strong about what I'm doing rite now.
So I really can't complain.

Tomorrow I have the End of year show at Uni. I feel like I have done quite well this year, and I cannot wait to show Jason (The local Fred Perry Store manager) our work!
I'm so stoked to see what he will think of it.
That, and the after party afterwards.
It feels like I haven't been able to have a proper party in a while now, just to be able to let my stresses go and have a good time.

I'm off now to go get some sleep and listen to my new favorite song.

Should you return by Copeland.
That band are one of the greatest band's alive today,
anyway,

Goodnight
Neil


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